Writing has been an enjoyable process ever since I began toying with prose, keeping journals, and corresponding with friends during the college daze. The philosophical/mystical/whatever-you-want-to-call-them thoughts that started popping into mind since 1989 have always been very out-of-the-blue spontaneous. Nothing planned or forced about them. They are being shared on the off chance that others may find them of interest, though, quite frankly, it really does not matter if no one else ever even reads them, for I am first and foremost my own audience. I got mine, so to speak, and it is, as it has ever been, up to each to discern their own on their own. There are really no followers in the ultimate quest, only earnest seekers who waylay their desires and fears enough to discern that which is the end to all doubt. “Yay” if it is your fate to figure it out.  “Oh well” if it is not. And “so it goes” either way, really.

“The Stillness Before Time” is the original 53-page work that was published in 1992, including mostly aphorisms, a few essays, and lists of movies and books. Though a self-published version can be purchased at major booksellers, a downloadable copy is available, no charge, at the website below. There are also a variety of links to several Facebook pages, Twitter, a number of blogs, and links to other very powerful writings of the same ilk.

The Stillness Before Time

A 53-page PDF copy can be downloaded at:

"The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim" is the second published book, and is both blogged and available as a PDF download.

The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim

A 505-page PDF copy can be downloaded at:

“Breadcrumbs” is a blog of a more personal nature than the others, including the most recent aphorisms, a life resume, a photo album, some duplicates of essays and lists previously published, and other this-and-that silliness that has come to mind over time. All just to show I was a living, breathing, relativity mundane, oftentimes foolish mortal, same as everyone else. No need to make me more than I was.  No need for legends, no need for myths, no need for fables, no need for miracles, no need for any fictions to which history has so often given itself. This collection of thoughts is as full of the limited and arbitrary as anything else born of space and time, so please do not shape it into some dogmatic lunacy.  Use it as a launchpad, not an orbit.

The different sections can be accessed by clicking through older and newer posts at the bottom of each page, or by searching through the blog archives in the sidebar.


An 1898-page PDF can be downloaded at:

And the latest blogging unpublished elsewhere:

The Unfolding Next Round (Current year unpublished elsewhere)

“The Return to Wonder” blog is a compendium of aphorisms not included in the three other works: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, and Breadcrumbs.  It totals 3,000 pages formatted in 300 ten-page chapters written since 1990-ish. It has been uploaded beginning with Chapter 265 up to Chapter 1, followed by Chapter 266 up to 300.

The Return to Wonder

Please note that this sort of wordplay is very random; all but impossible to put into any rational order. Probably best read it in bits and pieces in the here and there.  One of those open-to-any-page works. Especially well-suited for coffee shops, coffee tables, and porcelain thrones.

Also note that all writings are subject to annual updates and editing, so downloading current PDF copies every year or so might be a good idea if you want the most current version. This applies especially to the Breadcrumbs compendium, which is likely an ongoing work until the last wheezing breath.

If you find these many thoughts at all relevant, please feel free to share them with others who might also appreciate them, else they will more quickly slip back into the timeless oblivion from whence they came.

All the best,


P.S.  Regarding the name Yaj Ekim ... It is just a reverse spelling on the first and middle names ... Michael Jay Holshouser ... Mike Jay ... Yaj Ekim. Coincidently, make of it what you will, Yaj is an Indian boy’s name meaning worshipper, sacrifice, another name for Shiva, a sage. And Ekim is a Turkish name for October meaning “sowing” (of seeds).


The Stillness Before Time

There is really only one Way.
It is without division or boundary.
It is without name or theology.
Awareness is its scripture,
Here now its venue,
You its witness,
Your life the journey.

A 53-page PDF copy can be downloaded at:

Main Blogs

The Stillness Before Time

The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim

The Return to Wonder



The Stillness Before Time (53 pages)

​The Return to Wonder​ (3006 pages)

Breadcrumbs (Compendium) (1898 pages)

Breadcrumbs 2018 (578 pages)

Breadcrumbs 2020 (222 pages)

Conversations (309 pages)

Definitions (104 pages)

Titles, Titles & More Titles (220 pages)

Ditties for the Bluegrass Pyre (15 pages)

Once Upon a Christmas (1 page)

(Please note that all writings are subject to annual updates and editing, so downloading current PDF copies every year or so might be a good idea if you want the most current version.  This applies especially to the Breadcrumbs compendium, which is likely an ongoing work until the last wheezing breath)

Recent Breadcrumbs

The Unfolding Next Round (Current ditties unpublished elsewhere)

Standouts from "The Return to Wonder" Edit

Possible Last Words & Epitaphs

List of Top Books for the Up and Coming

The Unfolding Next Round (Current year ​unpublished elsewhere)

Of the Human Journey

Got God?

Ten Reflections

Standouts from the Return to Wonder Edit


Life Resume

Photo Gallery



Quotes Worth Pondering

Spam Responses (a.k.a. WTF Is This Shit!?) 


Michael Holshouser

Michael's Little Warehouse of All Things Amusing, Absurd & Profound

Le Fichier Circulaire de Michaël (Michael’s Circular File)

Yaj Ekim

Hughson Union High School Class of '72



Michael Holshouser

Odd and Ends

Final Exit

The Blind Men and the Elephant

The Joyful Curmudgeon

Of A Philosophical Nature

Quotes, Quotes & More Quotes

The Four Agreements

Le Fichier Circulaire de Michaël

50 Rules Kids Won't Learn in School

12 Rules You Can Live By

How to Work in Any Environment

Once Upon a Christmas

Ditties for the Bluegrass Pyre

Election 2016: The Rise (and Fall?) of Donald Trump

Eight Translations of the Ashtavakra Gita

The Heart of Awareness (Byrom)

Ashtavakra Gita (Marshall)

Bitten by the Black Snake (Schoch)

A Duet of One (Balsekar)

Ashtavakra Gita (Richards)

Astavakra Samhita (Wood)

Ashtavakra Gita (Vedic Scriptures)
Translations of Other Ancient Writings

Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva

Tao Te Ching: Verse One

Tao Te Ching (Marshall)

Avadhut Gita (Shastri)

Song of the Avadhut (Abhayananda)

Atma Bodha (Chinmayananda)

The Essence of the Ribhu Gita (Ramamoorthy & Nome)

Yoga Vasishta Sara (Ramasramam)

Crest-Jewel of Discrimination (Madhavananda)

Mandukya Upanishad & Mandukya Karika of Gaudapada (Panoli)

Gaudapada: Advaita Vedanta’s First Philosopher (Jones)

Translations of Ancient Writings by Bart Marshall

Writings by Bart Marshall

Verses Regarding True Nature

One Hundred Two Haiku

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